i’m here to request some help because i’m feeling realy bad right now. I’m not a heavy smoker, smoked maybe 10 joints in all my life ( i’m 17 ). Saturday night i had a party and we smoked 2 joints, that’s all. I never took anything else then cannabis. Now i’m feeling really strange like if everything was fake. I’m trying to tell my self that it’s in my head but then i’m even more scared and my heart goes up. I’m scared to stay like that all my life! I have no hallucinations or tunnel vision, only the feeling that i’m like dreaming and all around me is fake. I never had that before i’m realy scared, i can’t sleep because the only thing in my head is ” ALL IS FAKE ” . I talked about that with my parents, i didn’t say i smoked weed. I’m scared because i also think that the only solution to stop that is to kill myself. My parents suggested me to do some hypnoses maybe it will help me.

does anyone know how to feel better?

tanks a lot for any help .
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sorry guys, i wanted to say more so here we go.

I posted this question a while ago, more then a month now. I really feel better, i don’t feel like i want to kill myself, i use to have anxiety but not anymore.

Now i feel abit in my world, abit disconnected, i don’t know how to explane how i feel, it’s hard.

Also when i watch a movie , like if i go to the cinema watch the last movie that came out, i feel like i already saw it even if i know it’s not true, that i never saw it before. also when i watch tv, i feel like i already saw this or that, deja vu feelings in a way.

I feel tired , but i sleep good, i don’t have anymore problem to sleep. I go to bed at 12, wake up at 9 or 10 am. so it’s a good sleep.

No one ever came to me say like : wow you look weird today ” or something like that. I look like before, but in my head i’m a bit lost.

Maybe it’s because i’m a teenager , i’m taking conscience that life isn’t pink.

I hope you can give me some advice.

thanks.

BQ: How would you rate the following?

I’m cloaked in smoke but feel no flames
Folks float around me but I see no wings
No halos or hounds, pitchforks or gates
Or omnipotent voice that picks course or fate
To the life of indecision build a dreamscape prison
Where light isn’t manufactured but captured inside a prism
In a state between asleep and awake
Feels closest to hypnosis where the infinite wait
Then the fog dissipates revealing crimson fields
Quick ? by a fawn with flaming heels
Eyes red as stop signs and a mane of quills
As it gaze past hills of diamond trees
I see a silhouette rest upon golden knees
For the body of a goddess and a face of dreams
A half-naked ? good in a pagan hood
Kiss me on the cheek, we didn’t speak but I understood
It wasn’t Heaven that I was seeking but a haven I sought
A canvas of the mind painted with my thoughts

Everything ain’t what it seems
I wake up to find I’m inside of a dream inside of a dream
See buried deep beside the seams of my screams
Of beings and otherworldly things rarely seen
Might be psychosis or maybe I chose this
The night approaches every time the eye closes
I see a burning bush, feel like I’m Moses
Burn so much kush I feel like amosis
All my images are morgues and wounds
And every fork in the road moves through Freud and Jung
In the darkness no orchard blooms
A state so dark, sparks from the torch is consumed
It’s like I live in a fortress of doom
In the forest where the blood pores were forced from my wounds
My body aches from this lobotomy, a part of me shakes
Open my eyes, I’m awake, awake

-From ‘Embers’ by CunninLynguists